sábado, 4 de junio de 2011

Conjure One

I've heard many song from them but I found this one better than the rest

domingo, 8 de mayo de 2011

domingo, 1 de mayo de 2011

A life with a lack of meaning

Recently I've been wondering... why everything I do is lacking of significance? , is a though question.

First I remember things that used to made feel happy like a raining day , a good work day , having lunch with friend , workout. watch TV. read mails and share funny stuff via mms. Now I feel like doing what I'm suppose to do has no taste at all. Today , I don't care if is raining or not. no worrying if anybody is having lunch with me or not , forgetting completely about workout , I haven't checked my mail in days and if I get text messages I don't bother reading them. I'm feeling just like a zombie just watching days and friends go by.

Nothing I do is making me feel happy , I found indifference in every single thing I've tried to do. what does it take to get me out of this situation? I know I don't want to be this way but the more I try , The more I feel everything tasteless. I got me a new camera and is still in the box. I have no motivation for nothing and even right now these lines I'm writing on are not releasing me of this emptiness.

miércoles, 13 de abril de 2011

Pandora Radio Internet


 

Pandora Radio is a USA only, automated music recommendation service and custodian of the Music Genome Project. Users enter a song or artist that they enjoy, and the service responds by playing selections that are musically similar. Users provide feedback on approval or disapproval of individual songs, which Pandora takes into account for future selections.

While listening, users are offered the ability to buy the songs or albums at various online retailers. Over 400 different musical attributes are considered when selecting the next song. These 400 attributes are combined into larger groups called focus traits. There are 2,000 focus traits. Examples of these are rhythm syncopation, key tonality, vocal harmonies, and displayed instrumental proficiency.

The service has two subscription plans: a free subscription supported by advertisements, and a fee-based subscription without ads. A free account user may reach the streaming limit of 40 hours per month, and continue unlimited streaming by paying $0.99. There are also advertisements in "Pandora Mobile" for mobile phones and the "Pandora in The Home" computer appliance. In his June 2010 appearance on The Colbert Report, one of Pandora Radio's co-founders Tim Westergren stated that most users choose the free subscription.

MOBILE DEVICES

The Pandora Mobile for BlackBerry application is limited to AT&T, Sprint, Verizon, T-Mobile, Boost Mobile, and U.S. Cellular U.S. carriers, but visiting the Pandora website directly from other providers' BlackBerry users have been successful downloading the fully-operational application. Likewise, the Windows Mobile client is limited to a select number of handsets, however the installer is available from 3rd party sources and works fine or with only minor display glitches on most devices.

Some users have claimed Pandora can be access outside USA using web proxy servers
http://www.publicproxyservers.com

martes, 5 de abril de 2011

domingo, 27 de marzo de 2011

The Farthest Galaxy Pinpointed

I was boring as hell so I decided to take a look to google earth , a friend told me to switch to sky view and I found it quite amazing. how detailed the constelations and stars are and with lot of information about'em

Then I got quite interesting in knowing what is the farthest galaxy ever discovered and after a little bit of research ( using Google of course ) I found that UDFy-38135539 is the farthest galaxy discovered by the Huddle Telescope. Astronomers have confirmed that UDFy-38135539 galaxy in the constellation Fornax is the most distant known object in the universe, shining more than 13 billion light-years away and reflecting an era when stars were just beginning to emerge from a cosmic fog and they found that we are seeing it when the Universe was less than 600 million years old. Here is a picture from UDFy-38135539

jueves, 17 de marzo de 2011

sábado, 5 de marzo de 2011

Peace of Mind

Today was one of those weird days that ended with something out of common. So , here is the details

Today was my day off , I used it to do all my personal matters ( pay bills , get my place organized , things that you normally do in your free time ) after doing all these things I got in the mood to workout a little so I put my pants and tennis shoes on and went out for a little fresh air.

There's a long walk path in one of the public parks close to my place , after jogging for a little more than an hour I reached a point where the path leads to a hill and by luck the sun was hiding behind the hill. The view was quite impressive specially the clouds and the red glow in the horizont. I sat down on the soil to enjoy the view. I don't know why or how my head stopped thinking , nothing crossed my mind. I felt relaxed staring at the sky itself , worrying about nothing. I never though that a simple sunset could cause all this peace of mind on me, I never have experienced peace like the one those clouds brought to me.

It's really amazing how great things are hidden in the most common things. I made my mind and I will start shooting at sunsets and skies. I want to be a landscape sniper

sábado, 19 de febrero de 2011

Loneliness

This week was full of strange thoughts that distract me from reality. after my week of in Chicago with my friend ( by the way I had a great time there ) and in one of the conversation we had , she wondered why I'm always alone. she told me she could not understand why someone so open and nice like me haven't got into a relationship and I told her maybe I'm too complicated or am not wide open to show how I feel. she asked me. have u ever been in love before? ( I would be lying if i deny it ) I told her that I don't really know. I have lots of friends but for an unknown reason when I start interesting in someone that person just goes away or disappear. I thought was me but she didn't believe that. Maybe I got to know that person very well to open my heart. she also asked "do you feel good being alone all the time? u know , waking alone in the morning , having breakfast alone. I know you're not living with your parent but you are always surrounded with friends and go out often but what about at the end of the day? have you ever yearning with someone by your side at night?

what she told me had a great weight , because I never thought about that before until know. in my way back my eyes were on the road but my mind were resonating her words and for the first time I felt alone. riding my car with no one in the passenger seat , without that special one, the one you can talk all day long and you'll never get bored. I mean. what's the point of live the life in a great and comfortable way if you don't have someone to share it?

I don't know if someone reads this or not but if you have someone special by your side , tell her/him every time you can how much she/he means to you. loneliness is really painful..................


lunes, 7 de febrero de 2011

Fowler Ridge Wind Farm

A friend of mine who lives in Chicago Illinois invited me to go there, after my promotion i got a week off so i decided to accept her invitation. tried to invite some friends to make the trip but anyone was avaliable :( so i got my baggage and start the 16 hours trip ( suppose to be around 14 hours trip but some areas of partial toll roads slow the traffic ) Anyway when I was driving on I-65 crossing Indiana at the very end of Lafayette county I saw windmills spreading in every direction across the flat landscape of corn fields.

Is very rare ( I would say impossible ) to see windmills here in the south so this was something new for me. so I stopped the car and take these shots. I could have taken many more but the road's shoulder was too low and traffic runs at 85 MPH so was a little bit dangerous to park my car  in a spot like that

Later in Illinois I asked my friend about the windmills and she told me that was the Fowler Ridge Wind Farm, a partnership between BP Wind Energy and Dominion ( a Transnational Power Company ) which is responsible to power the states of Illinois , Indiana , Ohio and Kentucky.

here are a couple of shots I took from Fowler Ridge Wind Farm

 


 See u back in the South next week :) 

sábado, 5 de febrero de 2011

Wondering

Today I sat down in my front porch while drinking a cup of tea. last night in a company meeting I got a new position. normally someone who got a better position o achieve a higher goal feels that new and exciting things will come but was not my case. I felt that even I was making progress , this and the rest of my past goals were not making me feel satisfied. I start wondering what should I do to feel that I'm doing things right.


martes, 25 de enero de 2011

Children International

Maybe you have heard before about Children International , I heard of it many of times but never paid attention to it until I decided to sponsor a child based on a close friend experience. She told me that she has been sponsoring a child for over year and a half and dared me to try at least for a couple of months. After all it's just 22 bucks a month. " 22 dollars ain't that bad , Let's give a try " I said

I logged into Children International.org and did all the process to sponsor a child in June. I received a photo of the child sponsored , his and his parent's information. Also received information about the area he lives and much more.

He is Elijah and he is from Zambia. here is a picture of him

 


I have to admit that doing this I feel like I'm doing something good. with 22 dollars i can give him what he really needs. it just take 30 mins of my paycheck to sponsor this child and is something that gives me peace of mind because i'm helping someone who has not the same opportunities like many of us have. If you have the chance to do something for someone and don't know who. Try sponsoring a child. I bet you won't be disappointed






viernes, 21 de enero de 2011

Amber

Today I think was a weird day

I called a friend of mine. Amber , she turned 30 today and I though i would be a good idea to stop at her place and wish  happy birthday. also was my day off , the first one after the ice storm that kept me in home for 4 days.
when I arrived to her place , I noticed she was crying and I asked what was wrong and she just told me that she was crying cause she was happy that she was turning 30 but something told me that she was not telling me the truth.

" U can't fool me amber , come'on tell me". what's happening? why are u crying?. Today is you day , you're suppose to be happy. She looked at me and said " I'm turning 30 and see me here I'm alone most of the time , I eat alone , I sleep alone. The only one i receive love is from my dog. no many friends and the ones i got can be counted with my fingers. Like right now is almost 11 am and you're the only one who has called me and stopped by. I though i was a lone wolf but the truth is most people think I'm a freak. what wrong with being different? They think a girl who spent her time watching the stars from her room instead being in a party is not a normal girl.
 Do you think I'm a freak? "

If you were a freak , I wouldn't be stopping by. I said. I like the way you are and I think you are a good freak after all :). do not mind what others say. you don't have to change your way just to please people. believe me if you do that you're gonna feel sorrier for yourself. I'm sure you gonna find your perfect freak male. but for now , what if we go to eat something? I'm starving.

we ate at Ruby Tuesday and spent almost two hours talking about the things we like and dislike and I found her quite interesting. looks like other people don't take the time to know her well. when we left the restaurant I told her that and she told me "u made my day "( I think I did my good action of the day )

I told her that I have a blog and i would be posting what we did today. Im fixing to email her with this entry so she can see that I did what promised and if you're reading this I have just one thing to say

HAPPY 30'S AMBER 

I know you like this one



jueves, 13 de enero de 2011

Too much love will kill him

I had a discussion with my grandmother last night. want to know the reason? then continue reading

It all started 15 years ago, I have a cousin named Jhonny. He was among us the most preferred by my grandmother. I remember we got a couple of part-time jobs in the summer, I got in an industrial machine shop and he in a car repair shop

I was responsible for simple tasks like cleaning or going to the mechanic, do errands and he performed the same tasks at work, I remember one night coming back home, I could see
my grandmother and my aunt talking to him and asked "What is this all about?" They told me they found my cousin working in the sun and that maybe could cause skin cancer. and I
said to myself "we are at 26 degrees, please, that sounds ridiculous!!! " I would not say it out loud because I knew I would start a discussion

Then he spent the rest of the summer watching TV, playing video games and wandering in the evenings with the consent of the grandmother. She believed it was right and that he should not "suffer" in what she called "Forced Labor. " Meanwhile, I spent many years working in the summer while my cousin spent every summer doing the same thing

when he turned 20, he had a girlfriend named Nancy, and for reasons of fate, she became pregnant. we did not know until one morning I went to my room and I realized that my personal items were gone and my cousin and his girlfriend had not reported to class. They had escaped to another city to avoid being reprimanded by her pregnancy. the evening of that day was an absolute chaos. My grandmother felt to die because she did not know what could have happened to them. Nancy's relatives came to the house asking if we had
knowledge of the whereabouts of them. I could sense what was really going on. Nancy has a sister , her name Susan. We got along very well and asked her for a moment alone. I noticed that she was really quiet for the situation that was happening. and I asked her "spit out the beans, where did they go?. She told me" I have no idea " and I told her "If you don't tell me where they are you'll be in serious trouble, " she was nervous and I also said " if you tell me where they are, I promise I will not say who told me" after she told me everything, I talked to Susan's father and promised him to look for his daughter and my cousin. But I already knew where they were, I got Susan out of trouble by doing this.

The next morning after the "search" my grandmother was inconsolable and she asked me if I knew anything about them , and told her "I'm as confused as you are , but do not worry. when they run out of money , they will return, so just wait and see." my aunt was upset, she said she would not allow him to enter the house never again.

A month later, we received a call, it was Jhonny. told us about the pregnancy of his girlfriend and he was so scared and ran away with her (without saying that he had taken my belongings with him, anyway. His mother paid me the value of things taken)

My grandmother ordered my aunt that they should live with us to take care of the baby. after the birth of the baby, I had one of the most difficult years. My room was next to them and every night the baby cried, was impossible to sleep but I could not blame anyone.

They moved to another city and my cousin never took the responsability as a head of his family. One day nancy told my cousin that she was taking the baby to the daycare and then heading to her job , but that was the last time he saw them. He asked me if I knew something but I didn't have any idea where they went. Nancy's parents cut communications with him and he never knew about them. ( i think nancy got tired of his laziness and ran away ).

After six months He told me he was going out with Lizette and I said " you are supposed to be searching for your daughter , what the hell are you thinking men?". The point is that Lizette got pregnant too and he never changed his ways. and the same story happened again. Lizette ran away from him for the same reason Nancy did and he returned to grandma's house

He is having a lot of trouble trying to get a job because resume in three words he is a " Good for Nothing " After I finished school. I started working full time and saving money until now. it has been a tough time for him because he refuses to leave his party life aside and take responsabilities.

Last night Grandma called me. she asked me if I can do something for him and let him live in my place and I said " No way " I'm not gonna break my back for someone who does not want to do nothing. you ruined him for letting him do what he pleased and never teach him what he was supposed to do". and she got mad at me and said lot of bad things at me ( she was always overprotecting him , blinded by love ) and I told her " Grandma you gotta do something , TOO MUCH LOVE IS GONNA KILL HIM " I won't be resolving his problems. leave him on his own. let him do it by himself. she hung up the phone cursing me but I knew i did the right thing.

My mom called me later telling me that grandma was really disappointed with me , my mother asked me why I refused to help him and I told her " it's for his own good mom , Believe me. the only way we can do something for him is pushing him to do thing on his own. if we always resolve his troubles , he will never grow up as a man " I don't know how long is gonna be before grandma speak to me again , but i feel she is gonna thank me for what I did. it's just a matter of time

miércoles, 12 de enero de 2011

Brother

barely remember his face, after school we used to play ourselves. imagining that we were space pilots, traveling supersonic aircraft made of cardboard and imagination.

if, in the midst of our adventure, my shoelaces were untied. he stopped the ship only to tie them again to avoid falling into enemy hands because of the laces.

He showed me how to dress appropriately, that our appearance is not everything but it works as a letter of introduction.

between adventure and adventure, he taught me the values that each brother should give the younger brother and that these values are not limited to siblings, but must be taught to every young man behind us.

have already been more than 20 years he has gone to where no one suffers with earthly affairs. but , all he left me , it's something with a power that nobody can deny or argue.

I hope i can be able to see him again and continue our space adventures in a place where the sky is always blue and the wind blows gently.

I miss you brother.... God knows how much , thank you for saving me every time I feel down



Here is a song from the wrong side of town
Where I'm bound to the ground by the loneliest sound
And it pounds from within and is pinning me down

Here is a page from the emptiest stage
A cage or the heaviest cross ever made
A gauge of the deadliest trap ever laid

And I thank you for bringing me here
For showing me home
For singing these tears
Finally I've found that I belong here

The heat and the sickliest sweet smelling sheets
That cling to the backs of my knees and my feet
Well I'm drowning in time to a desperate beat

And I thank you for bringing me here
For showing me home
For singing these tears
Finally I've found that I belong

Feels like home
I should have known
From my first breath

God send the only true friend I call mine
Pretend that I'll make amends the next time
Befriend the glorious end of the line

And I thank you for bringing me here
For showing me home
For singing these tears
Finally I've found that I belong here