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And who comes to my mind when I hear this? 

Peace of Mind

Today was one of those weird days that ended with something out of common. So , here is the details

Today was my day off , I used it to do all my personal matters ( pay bills , get my place organized , things that you normally do in your free time ) after doing all these things I got in the mood to workout a little so I put my pants and tennis shoes on and went out for a little fresh air.

There's a long walk path in one of the public parks close to my place , after jogging for a little more than an hour I reached a point where the path leads to a hill and by luck the sun was hiding behind the hill. The view was quite impressive specially the clouds and the red glow in the horizont. I sat down on the soil to enjoy the view. I don't know why or how my head stopped thinking , nothing crossed my mind. I felt relaxed staring at the sky itself , worrying about nothing. I never though that a simple sunset could cause all this peace of mind on me, I never have experienced peace like the one those clouds brought to me.

It's really amazing how great things are hidden in the most common things. I made my mind and I will start shooting at sunsets and skies. I want to be a landscape sniper

Loneliness

This week was full of strange thoughts that distract me from reality. after my week of in Chicago with my friend ( by the way I had a great time there ) and in one of the conversation we had , she wondered why I'm always alone. she told me she could not understand why someone so open and nice like me haven't got into a relationship and I told her maybe I'm too complicated or am not wide open to show how I feel. she asked me. have u ever been in love before? ( I would be lying if i deny it ) I told her that I don't really know. I have lots of friends but for an unknown reason when I start interesting in someone that person just goes away or disappear. I thought was me but she didn't believe that. Maybe I got to know that person very well to open my heart. she also asked "do you feel good being alone all the time? u know , waking alone in the morning , having breakfast alone. I know you're not living with your parent but you are always surrounded with friends and go out often but what about at the end of the day? have you ever yearning with someone by your side at night?

what she told me had a great weight , because I never thought about that before until know. in my way back my eyes were on the road but my mind were resonating her words and for the first time I felt alone. riding my car with no one in the passenger seat , without that special one, the one you can talk all day long and you'll never get bored. I mean. what's the point of live the life in a great and comfortable way if you don't have someone to share it?

I don't know if someone reads this or not but if you have someone special by your side , tell her/him every time you can how much she/he means to you. loneliness is really painful..................

Fowler Ridge Wind Farm

A friend of mine who lives in Chicago Illinois invited me to go there, after my promotion i got a week off so i decided to accept her invitation. tried to invite some friends to make the trip but anyone was avaliable :( so i got my baggage and start the 16 hours trip ( suppose to be around 14 hours trip but some areas of partial toll roads slow the traffic ) Anyway when I was driving on I-65 crossing Indiana at the very end of Lafayette county I saw windmills spreading in every direction across the flat landscape of corn fields.

Is very rare ( I would say impossible ) to see windmills here in the south so this was something new for me. so I stopped the car and take these shots. I could have taken many more but the road's shoulder was too low and traffic runs at 85 MPH so was a little bit dangerous to park my car  in a spot like that

Later in Illinois I asked my friend about the windmills and she told me that was the Fowler Ridge Wind Farm, a partnership between BP Wind Energy and Dominion ( a Transnational Power Company ) which is responsible to power the states of Illinois , Indiana , Ohio and Kentucky.

here are a couple of shots I took from Fowler Ridge Wind Farm

 

 See u back in the South next week :) 

Wondering

Today I sat down in my front porch while drinking a cup of tea. last night in a company meeting I got a new position. normally someone who got a better position o achieve a higher goal feels that new and exciting things will come but was not my case. I felt that even I was making progress , this and the rest of my past goals were not making me feel satisfied. I start wondering what should I do to feel that I'm doing things right.

Children International

Maybe you have heard before about Children International , I heard of it many of times but never paid attention to it until I decided to sponsor a child based on a close friend experience. She told me that she has been sponsoring a child for over year and a half and dared me to try at least for a couple of months. After all it's just 22 bucks a month. " 22 dollars ain't that bad , Let's give a try " I said

I logged into Children International.org and did all the process to sponsor a child in June. I received a photo of the child sponsored , his and his parent's information. Also received information about the area he lives and much more.

He is Elijah and he is from Zambia. here is a picture of him

 

I have to admit that doing this I feel like I'm doing something good. with 22 dollars i can give him what he really needs. it just take 30 mins of my paycheck to sponsor this child and is something that gives me peace of mind because i'm helping someone who has not the same opportunities like many of us have. If you have the chance to do something for someone and don't know who. Try sponsoring a child. I bet you won't be disappointed

Amber

Today I think was a weird day

I called a friend of mine. Amber , she turned 30 today and I though i would be a good idea to stop at her place and wish  happy birthday. also was my day off , the first one after the ice storm that kept me in home for 4 days.
when I arrived to her place , I noticed she was crying and I asked what was wrong and she just told me that she was crying cause she was happy that she was turning 30 but something told me that she was not telling me the truth.

" U can't fool me amber , come'on tell me". what's happening? why are u crying?. Today is you day , you're suppose to be happy. She looked at me and said " I'm turning 30 and see me here I'm alone most of the time , I eat alone , I sleep alone. The only one i receive love is from my dog. no many friends and the ones i got can be counted with my fingers. Like right now is almost 11 am and you're the only one who has called me and stopped by. I though i was a lone wolf but the truth is most people think I'm a freak. what wrong with being different? They think a girl who spent her time watching the stars from her room instead being in a party is not a normal girl.
 Do you think I'm a freak? "

If you were a freak , I wouldn't be stopping by. I said. I like the way you are and I think you are a good freak after all :). do not mind what others say. you don't have to change your way just to please people. believe me if you do that you're gonna feel sorrier for yourself. I'm sure you gonna find your perfect freak male. but for now , what if we go to eat something? I'm starving.

we ate at Ruby Tuesday and spent almost two hours talking about the things we like and dislike and I found her quite interesting. looks like other people don't take the time to know her well. when we left the restaurant I told her that and she told me "u made my day "( I think I did my good action of the day )

I told her that I have a blog and i would be posting what we did today. Im fixing to email her with this entry so she can see that I did what promised and if you're reading this I have just one thing to say

HAPPY 30'S AMBER 

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